God gives his toughest battles to his toughest soldiers. This is why I have to keep fighting. I'm not going to give up because my mind is taking over. I know the strong girl inside of me is still there and can get over the thoughts that are so disturbing and gaining control of my every day tasks. It is going to take time, but fighters never stop for what they really want for their life. For me, I want to get married and have kids someday. Why should my thoughts stop me? I've been the toughest fighter since I came into this world, and the society should not be able to come into my head and wreck me. it's kind of as if I lost myself through seeing the changes in our world, and I have to get myself back to where I was before my thoughts started to take control. and I'm going to do just that & not let anything stop me. As hard as it is to get dressed in the morning, go to public places in fear that the thoughts might pop up, soon going to school, I'm going to do it anyway. Iknow who I really am, not my thoughts right now. The fear that those thoughts might come out of my mouth anytime with no control. That happy and strong girl, will come back. I want to get through this and be able to say that I dealt with the toughest battle of my mind as I would call it and I was able to get through it. The "Sassy Angie" that wouldn't let anything stop her or get to her is still there, it might take a while to find myself again, but with support and love I will do it and be able to. I don't understand why I was given this "battle" to overcome, but I will come out stronger than ever.
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