I guess I don’t know how to do this anymore. everyday that I think I’m getting better, something goes wrong and things get worse and worse. I’m trying but nothing it working, and I don’t know where to turn anymore. I’m really tired of everything that comes with depression and anxiety, it’s exhausting and I’m fed up with it. I feel like sleeping for days on end, and I barely manage to get out of bed on most days. I think I’m falling apart slowly, piece by piece, and nothing seems to stop it. No one seems to see it, or maybe they do and they don’t actually care about me. No one cares about me. I’m not sure what I did to make people hate me and to make people wanna hurt me constantly, I never meant to do anything that would make someone do that, but I guess I did. I did something wrong and this is what I deserve now isn’t it? This is my life and this is all I will ever be, the boy that is used as a punching bag at home and at school. I am nothing but some “faggot” for people to push around at school and call slurs for hours each day. Life has gotten so hard and I’m really trying to find the point in all of this, it’s getting harder and harder though and I’m going to lose it sometime soon if I don’t start talking with someone, or if I don’t put myself out there and let people message me, talk to me, actually communicate with me. I need that in my life and I’m hoping that this will give it to me. Maybe it will, maybe it won’t, I don’t know anymore.
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