I’ve had social anxiety since I started school at the age of two because I talked DEFINITELY then others my age, but it didn’t really get worse until middle school when I got verbally abused because of it. I didn’t want to speak to ANYBODY. I felt hopeless, horrible, and stupid. I was so close to committing SUICIDE because of it but I didn’t because I knew it would hurt my family very deeply so I would hold all my emotions in until now cause I know if I hold them in any longer I WILL commit SUICIDE!!
Related Articles
-
Update
I think…I'm on the up swing today. I still have rough anxiety but it's dealable. I was able to...
-
Happy and miserable
warning: super long blog. basically letting off some steam and doing some therapeutic venting, so please don't feel like...
-
My Own Worst Enemy
Maybe it’s the lack of sleep… Maybe it’s been my mood swings through these past weeks… Or it’s just...
-
First Session
Had my first session yesterday. It was a weird feeling as I walked in the door. There was the...
-
Could It be, Really? Probably Not.
A Date……He picked me up, he was tall, polite, well spoken, but an even better listener, insiteful. He drove...
-
Grab Bag?
Things have been… hectic and somewhat down-making lately. I got my initial denial for Disability about two weeks ago...
-
Things are better. I hope the best for you all.
Hey members of Depression Tribe! Long time, no blog post. It’s crazy how time flies. Almost 6 years ago...
-
I want to do what i might later regret not doing…
But wtf do i want to do ???!!! I pasted the following from my myspace entry today… Maybe...
I know how you feel! I have terrible social anxiety due to fear of being unaccepted and disliked, and for a year now I’ve been suicidal. I haven’t done myself in yet because I once heard someone say “When my dad commit suicide, I felt like I wasn’t good enough for him to stick around. It made me feel unwanted.” That hit deep. Suicide isn’t the solution, it’s the pollution. Trust me, this is coming from someone who’s attempted suicide before, I’m here to tell you that there’s hope!!! We just have to press on, and we’ll get our prize at the end and feel good that we stayed! Don’t hold your emotions in, tell someone you can trust! I talk to myself in the mirror about my feelings (pathetic, but it helps!). And, if you ever want to talk, I’m here! You can message me or whatever! Don’t forget that you’re amazing and you. Can. Do it!!!
I would love to talk
HI. I can understand and an relate to the social anxiety growing up.
Do you have anyone there a friend , a family member whom you can talk and express your feelings?
There is help and people are understanding.
It will get better. You are strong that you have faced those hardships .
I have a lot of family members I talked to but I don’t feel comfortable sharing everything
I am so sorry to hear you’ve been struggling for so long. I was probably around six when I started to deal with major anxiety and depression issues that I still deal with today. The other commenters are right though suicide really isn’t the answer yes it might stop things from getting worse but it also means it can never get any better. If you ever want to talk about anything from feelings to your favorite show I will be here for you. I am not awesome with advice but I am a good listener.
I would love to chat with you!
That’s so rough! So sorry to hear about your suicidal thoughts and holding everything in. There are so many amazing experiences you’re going to have if you keep going and don’t take your life. I know it’s really hard, but it will be worth it. You are strong and brave and you will make it through this!! I am here for you if you ever need anything.