Nothing changes. I was hoping this year would be different but it’s just more of the same. Stuck at a dead-end job, where people talk about others behind their backs and smile in their faces. Everywhere I go I’m surrounded by people I can’t stand. Fake people. People without any sincerity or authenticity. Currently looking for a better job, but all I get is rejection. Bad so-called friends that don’t reach out so I stopped reaching out to them. I’m always a better friend to others than they were to me. In the past I was always the one taking initiative but not anymore. I’m just tired of people in general. Tired of hearing them; tired of seeing them; tired of being around them; tired of everything. I don’t think therapy is working. I don’t have anyone to reach to when I’m depressed. Life is general feels pointless. Everyday year is the same as the last. Constantly battling suicidal ideation. Nothing matters.