well today i am dying of woman flu, its worse than man flu and is most definately fatal.  i have a sore throat which, im sure is my thyroid packing up and a cough which i know is lung cancer! My pounding head is due to the brain tumour and my nausia is just filling me with fear coz as a child my mum would put her fingers down my throat…she wasnt a very well woman but none the less im left with a phobia of vomiting.  apart from that i think my thinking may be a little off balance!!!!!!  ok, ive had a word with myself and actually i have a bit of flu or a virus and i have no tumours, cancers and my thyroid is fine.   this is just a case of woman flu with an alkie head.  my head went into everdrive this morning before i had a chance to say my prayers and start my day.  my partner told me that our son is being bullied again at school by one of the traveller kids.  i went into my childhood instantly and remembered the pain of being bullied.  i manged to drag all of that memory inot my  day and add it to my sons experiences…not a good start!  i managed to pray and have now handed it over because old behaviour would have me causing a bloody riot and it ending in pointing fingers and accusations etc.  we are at his parents evening later so will confront his teacher and ask him why he felt we had no business knowing that our son was crying and complaining about being tripped up most days.  i must remain in a place of doing what my HP wishes me to do and not taking it back.  the prayer in daily reflections on the january 20th is going to get a real bashing today and i need to go and ring my sponsor.  have a top day peeps and by the way i am so grateful to have been given these wonderful life saving tools…i may not sound it but i am still one grateful bunny…god bless the fellowship and all suffering addicts. xx