…So a continuation/update of my last blog.

It would seem that Tim can make my life miserable without even being there. Yesterday I went out with other friends, and one friend who was there the night of my humiliation. Everything was fine until the one eye-witness to Tim's cruelty decided to continue Tim's dirty work, and proceeded to make fun of me in front of more people. Although it was not NEARLY as bad as when Tim did it, it was still quite embarassing. It has me wondering if I should even go out in public anymore? My doctor and everyone here tells me that my OCD is nothing to be ashamed of; but lately it seems that maybe it is?

I still have not yet found a way to rid myself of Tim or his incessant teasing. Like a bad shadow or more like a parasitic insect he follows me around, feeding off my depression and taking every opportunity to belittle me to raise his social status. However, if he continues the attitude in the band that he's had for the past month, it looks like it won't be long til we replace him as a singer. He showed up late for a recording session we payed for by the hour, didn't practice before hand resulting in a poor quality voice and then on top of that, left the studio early because he had a party to go to that he committed to that morning.

My OCD has been off the charts recently – most likely due to the constant ridicule i've been going through recently. Now pretty much everyone I used to be friends with is under the idea that I'm a freak, crazy, a nerveous wreck. I just had someone text me a picture of a crooked painting with the caption "haha" Seriously, why do they think I care if their painting is crooked? Well why would I care when I'm not even there to see it personally anyway? I just ignored it, but it still bothers me that its happening. My only hope is that it just passes over, like any other storm in life. Though I can't help but feel I'm weathering this storm in the middle of a field with no umbrella.