I want these stupid loops to stop!
I know I know I know I know
I hate going to the events
I hate my job
People make me sick
I'm never going to get better
I'm so sad
I know I know I know I know
So why can't I stop saying those things to myself. I'm on the meds, I've tried to expose myself, I've tried to distract, and I've tried to rethink.
SO WHY THE HELL AM I STILL STUCK HERE!
I can't be fucking positive when so many thing keep going to shit!
an 800$ medical bill
sitting at event with my X husband and his girlfriend
an awful job with awful people
gas prices that are killing me
a 3 hour daily commute
family members with there own medical issues they lay on me
children that i seem to never please
messy house
friends that don't understand so i have to pretend to be ok
debt that i will never pay off
and on and on and on and on
I don't see how I can smile and be positive when I feel like at every turn i am being slapped in the face.
The loop won't turn off
OCD YOU ASS I KNOW MY LIFE SUCKS QUIT TELLING ME OVER AND OVER
