I have been a practicing Muslim for a little while now, but I haven’t been able to give up my witchcraft. I did some research and found that there are indeed Muslim witches out there, who claim that white witchcraft is Islamically acceptable, and the sinful witchcraft is that which seeks to do harm. I always invoke Allah when I am casting spells, for it is ultimately His power which energizes them. You will often hear witches talk about the energy of the earth powering their spells. I believe in that, but I believe that one can trace all energy and power back to Allah. It is not my power, as Wiccans would have me believe. I had to let go of Wicca, the theology just didn’t jive with me, and my experiences of Allah have caused me to believe in and worship only Him.

I just bought a new hijab scarf, it’s really pretty- a light blue jersey hijab which will require no pins. I had to take off my hijab here in the house, it’s just too warm to be wearing it. Just an aside, I used cat’s claws tea as the Element of Water in my most recent spell ( a healing spell), and it tastes similar to pau d’arco. Both are barks, so I guess that makes sense. Anyway, back to talking about my hijab. I feel so protected when I wear it, and it makes me feel beautiful. I have a lighter hijab for hot days, let me go put that one on. Ok, I’ve put it on, that’s much better.

I really hate this weather, come on Bay Area! I moved up here to get away from the heat, and to experience some rain. This I think has been the driest spring we’ve had in a long time. And it’s going to be in the 100s in the valley, I don’t want to go. My husband wants to move the RV and take it down to see his parents for Father’s Day. I really don’t want to do that. The heat will bother me and I will be doubly anxious. I am going to take some Ativan right now, in fact, I haven’t taken any yet today and it’s already past 11:30. My doctor has prescribed me Valium to take the place of Ativan, which I will pick up today at the pharmacy.

I cast a spell to banish orange cones, I cast it several times during the waning moon and the Dark Moon. I am wondering if it has backfired on me, because I am seeing more orange cones than ever before. It’s beyond frustrating and it makes me want to cry. Should I cast the spell again on the Full Moon? Some say it’s better to do banishings on the Dark Moon, and that we should not cast banishings on the Full Moon, but I need all the power I can get to get rid of these things, and the Full Moon is the most powerful phase. It will be on the 24th. Maybe the orange cone phenomenon has to get worse before it gets better. I must have faith and believe it will work. It just has to work, this is beyond absurd. I can’t stand those stupid things any longer. On Friday, if the ugly orange cone on 134th is still there, I am going to pick it up and put it in the trash can. I can’t stand it anymore, and I have emailed the city twice to have the crew come and pick up their mess. It’s their responsibility to clean up after themselves.

No one else seems to care that the world is covered in orange cones. They’re everywhere, on the side of the road, on highways, in medians, in driveways, parking lots, on ramps, off ramps, everywhere. My spell has to work. I told myself I would recast the spell if the cones aren’t cleaned up by the Full Moon. So that’s what I shall do. Blessed Be, InshaAllah.