For more than 20 years of panic attacks and depression, I noticed one thing !!
I always had this thought of me going to pass out or something going to happen to me, yet it NEVER happened not even once ,, can u believe it !!
Professional people say or they call it Safe guard, I’m talking about those things that keep me awake at night, prevent me from doing things as most people do without any problems or hesitation,
they say worry is a normal thing,, its a built-in function in human departments ,, in my worry department things had crossed over the fence, and start to act a little bit off the norm ,, it does make me think how and why other people are so fine and they don’t have problems like panicking and depression like me, or they might having them but kept under control,
is that make any sense ? or is it just me !!
its just a thought ,, I just want to share something with you guys like hey hello I’m here and Im part of this or I want to be part of this, something like that.
at this age 41 , I have no wife no friends no job, I haven’t gone out of my house for about 5 YEARS , and now I’m up in the middle of the night as always , me and my computer , my window to the world, for the most part I’m still thankful for what I have what I’ve got ,, I don’t know Im just going to call it a simple life , nothing more
I survived this drama twice along with my 20+ years in this anxiety panic depression thing and deep down in my heart and in my mind I know that I can and will survive this one as well, it feels like Ive lost my way but Im not giving up Im going to find my way again and continue my journey in life , my life .
thanx for reading .