I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember. Nothing helps. I’m completley alone. I’m always isolated. I don’t relate to anyone. I don’t connect with anyone. I don’t have any friends and I don’t want any anymore. I constantly have suicidal ideation and the only thing preventing me from killing myself are my parents. I’m stuck. My life doesn’t feel like it’s going anywhere and I can’t talk to anyone about it. Everyday I feel my mental health getting worse and no one notices. Life feels so empty and pointless. I’m currently contemplating killing myself. Everyday I feel closer to doing it.
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I hope you’re still here. You’re in the right place to find people who care, even if it’s a bit inactive. People suck, but the good ones are out there. It’s especially hard when you use black and white statements with everyone and no one. We always hated that statement of “don’t think in black and white”, but when you try it it does work. It’s a DBT skill, a type of therapy that is great for depression. Just by reframing your thinking to “I don’t connect to people I know AND there are people I haven’t met out there” could help. It’s not that no one cares. It’s not that you’ll never connect to anyone. It’s not that nothing works. You will never meet everyone or experience it all. There’s always something more out there. Trying is painful, but keep doing it. There’s going to be someone, even if a single person, out there who will care and you will connect with. You just need to find them. Keep looking. Wishing you luck.