Hello Tribe.

 Gosh it feels like an age since ive stomped these halls. Oh well my internet is back up and running so guess i have no excuse but to come back to you fine people.

My OCD has been so good recently dispite the fact that ive moved into a brand new place with 6 new flat mates who ive never met before. My OCD all but vanished. I think when you really have to get on with something because you have no choice your ocd either takes over or gets beaten back for a while in a "ive no time for you at the mo" kind of way.

But its the season of goodwill and that means…oh dear…here comes that ocd again just as im starting to relax. I loath xmas (i feel bad calling it chistmas as im not a christian so its more 'get family together and give stuff day') you see for many xmas is about what u have, for me its about what i have lost. Nothing i can do about it, thats just how i feel, but it means i have to throw up a mask, something i hate doing. So much of who i am is about just being myself but this time of year i feel trapped by having to be normal when all i want is to hide. Still, for one day i will don my hood and smile for the cameras.

So whats my message for this xmas? Well let me say this, take it easy you all over xmas. Its a holiday thats a bit like a slippery fish, dont hold it too tight or it will flip out of your hands. Keep ur head in reality cos it can smother you and with OCD it can be even worse. Enjoy it, chill and remember it will be over soon 😛

G.