I received a response back from some one and they discribed panic attack as one of there symptoms. This got me to thinking about, have I had any panic attacks in the past. Because i lived with ocd for 35 years without knowing I had it, many of my analysis of the disorder comes from reflections of memories from the past. I looked up panic attack in wikipedia ( I don’t think I spelled that right, and i am starting to think maybe I have had them. many times when I am confronted with very stressful situtions, for example, when someone really pisses me off, I get this pain in my kidneys, it feel like someone is knifing me in the sides. My heart rate gets really tense, and the urge to beat the hell out of the person kind of over takes me, but my mind says no, it is wrong to hit other people, even if you are mad. Though you can get angry at people, you do not have the right to. Then I have to spend a while calming down. Sometimes, i get so emotional that it brings me to tears, even though i am not sad. The cycle goes like this, first I get fustrated, angry, then mad, and then i get all kind of images in my head, then i get pain in my sides, both kidneys, sometimes i do get chest pains, but they are usually brief, then it gets very hard for me to talk, I loose some breath, as I try to speak or hold it together, then I tune out what ever is happening to me, sort of dreamescape to other thoughts, or if i can i walk away, then i have to be by myself for a while, sometimes I get mygraines or my noise starts to run. Sometimes it is just a suttle headache. I am wondering is that what a panic attack is, because when i walk up to women I really like, I get the same reaction…why do i do this, am I weird or broken?