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the most usless emotions are guilt shame and remose guilt and shame head the bunch i love you but you gotta hear what i am saying toots screw guilt and shake hands with shame and tell him to not come back again and if and when he does say hi your not welcome here any more ok best i can say you know you already know love you to infininty and beyond
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Oh Sadviolinist!
I started to cry as I read your blog. I am not the same person I once was. I was that overachiever as well. I was so independent. I could do anything. Now I cry before going to the store. I cry on the phone to my husband as well. I am so sorry that your parents cannot accept that you have changed; that you have an illness. That must be so very disappointing. I hurt for you that you do not get the support you need from them. It is so frustrating because if you were physically paralyzed they would not say those things and they would probably accept the changes in you.
I wish you the strength to distance yourself from your mom. I know it will be hard. But if it helps preserve your well being, then so be it. Remind yourself you are not guilty of anything other than having a disease. You are fighting that disease, but it is still there. So there is no need for guilt, or shame. You are a valuable, wonderful human being. You are a wife and mother and teacher. You have worth. Even if only connected by the internet, you do have friends here. Cherish them and what they mean to you.
Elf
I too cannot match my former self, too many ups, too many downs, including ECT and hospitalizations. Failure is very painful and personal I can't get used to it.. Ancient Greeks believed that in Hades, you were only a shade of your former self. I feel like Im in Hades already.