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Always Worrying
flirtwithsuicide, , Depression, Anxiety, Medication, Relationships, Social Anxiety, Therapist, Therapy, 1
Saturday, I was in the work cafeteria with my boyfriend. I went to grab some pizza, and the entire...
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In Decline
OrangeTree, , Anxiety, Depression, Anger, Depression, Therapy, 2
For a moment I believed that I was getting better. I convinced myself that I could grow as a...
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Beating Depression and Anxiety (My Success Story)
robfordeh@gmail.com, , Depression, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Personality Disorder, Therapist, Therapy, 0
At first depression and anxiety felt like a far off thought, it had never happened to anyone in my...
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The 23 best things…
fallen_paradise, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Therapist, 1
The 23 best things to say to someone who Is Depressed It is most tempting, when you find out...
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Not Worthy
deidrexx, , Depression, Grief, Obesity, Suicide, 0
I guess I'm not worthy of having friends. Really truly. David flaked out on me after telling me he...
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ha
dajia, , Depression, 0
well today sucks………..but there one person who always brings me up and he is amazing I love him sooo...
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Long way to happy
LonelyFemaleForever, , Depression, Anxiety, Sleep Disorders, 0
It is going to be a long way to happy indeed. I am a mess right now, no wonder...
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One Month of Sixteen (IV)
AbiMae802, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Marriage & Family, Child, Religion, Sleep Disorders, 0
Well… Today wasn’t completely crappy. I was pretty tired this morning when I finally got up outta bed. Last night...
the most usless emotions are guilt shame and remose guilt and shame head the bunch i love you but you gotta hear what i am saying toots screw guilt and shake hands with shame and tell him to not come back again and if and when he does say hi your not welcome here any more ok best i can say you know you already know love you to infininty and beyond
i call! rotflmbo
Oh Sadviolinist!
I started to cry as I read your blog. I am not the same person I once was. I was that overachiever as well. I was so independent. I could do anything. Now I cry before going to the store. I cry on the phone to my husband as well. I am so sorry that your parents cannot accept that you have changed; that you have an illness. That must be so very disappointing. I hurt for you that you do not get the support you need from them. It is so frustrating because if you were physically paralyzed they would not say those things and they would probably accept the changes in you.
I wish you the strength to distance yourself from your mom. I know it will be hard. But if it helps preserve your well being, then so be it. Remind yourself you are not guilty of anything other than having a disease. You are fighting that disease, but it is still there. So there is no need for guilt, or shame. You are a valuable, wonderful human being. You are a wife and mother and teacher. You have worth. Even if only connected by the internet, you do have friends here. Cherish them and what they mean to you.
Elf
I too cannot match my former self, too many ups, too many downs, including ECT and hospitalizations. Failure is very painful and personal I can't get used to it.. Ancient Greeks believed that in Hades, you were only a shade of your former self. I feel like Im in Hades already.