Why is it that everyone in my life thinks they know anything about what its like to have Cerebral palsy they get frustrated with me ….or having to take care of me i know its shity job but they have no idea what its like they havent went to one class to teach then about cp and why im the way i am ………..they see that i do something and if they cant understand it cuz they can do it or its not like that for them…..so ppl have a hard time when i try to give reasons why this or that happend or what ever…….i know what its like being a alcoholic….ive  never done drugs but ppl say i should …….ill give u a example …few yrs ago my mother went with me to doctors we talked about getting another operation on my leggs …..ik told my mother reasons why it weasnt a good idea ………she pretty much disreguarded what i said then the doctor came in and after few minutes talking …he repeted word for word what i hasd said to my mother…well now she was like i see what u are saying doc ………this happens to me everyday of my like it seems like ppl get upset cuz they say i just think about myself …………but im the only one who has av fucking clue how my mind works .my body …..im only one with CP …and with everything going on wioth my gf ….umong other reasons…..but when she finaly told me she dont love me as a bf atm cuz she needs a "normal bf" and she dont know if she can get past ….the handicaped part of me …….And she told me quit feeling sry for myself ………IM FIGHTING NOT TO HATE MYSELF ………..i just wish any of them could get just a glimps of my life and what they take for granted……..if this feeling sorry for my self .then maybe i shouldnt say anything i gues i just should let it eat me from the inside out and dievwithout ppl having to deal with how I feel aslong as they can say i had no idea..