If I have OCD and ADHD does that make me mentally ill by default.
In my current state of mind, I feel that I am mentally ill. I am kind of in this fight for right dispute with my dad. My mother is caught between the two of us. I knw for certain in my mind that what I am doing is right. Which in my mothers eyes is driving my dad crazy. I see that as a good thing. I think logically, either he will give up and stop tring to aggrvate me, or he will drop dead from a heart attack. he needs a triple bypass surgery and refuses to listen to the doctors, because his bar buddies have convienced him into thinking doctors are only in it for the money. I feel sort of righteous in being able to drive my dad crazy, it is kind of poetic justice. When I was a child, he took great joy and knocking me around. Now the tables are turned. I also think that if my parents had taken the time to get me properly diagnosed, then I would have learn to deal with these crazy mind moments at a younger age. I don't feel i am getting better, i feel like I am getting worst. Somedays are good but most days are bad. Other then the internet, I have very lttle contact with the outside world. When I am at college, people talk to me, but there s a distinct line that has been drawn. I hate that. It seems like if i draw a line, i am a bad person, but when people draw a line, i am still a bad person. I do believe, no matter how hard I try to work at it, I will never fit into what people want me to. I have been a radical all my life, I don't think that will change. I don't know anymore….