Today has been ok. FIrst one in a while that i could actually hold my head up high. I did get in some confontations today with some people i really don't like. They look down their noses at me. I can't stand it, it makes everypart of my body boil. It is so infuriating to be a junior in college and people still act like they are in 3rd grade. But. i actually took the time to go outside to today (although i got sunburnt). I enjoyed the warm air caressing my body like a lovers embrace. It feels good to feel comfortable in my own skin.am still fat, but Its ok. I have to love myself before any one else can love me. I know it will be ok eventually. All of these things in my life will pass, and I will be happy. It is just getting to the happy part. I wish i could just rocket myself there. But i know it is a journey and i have to be patient, mostly with myself. I shouldn't care about what other people think and say about me but i do, and so what if i am the biggest b-ee atch.. that ever walked. I do feel lost sometimes, but today was all about smelling the roses. One step at a time i guess. One, slow painful teetering first steps toward having a healthy productive life. I just want to be happy so my boyfriend can quit worrying. So i can' quit pulling my hair out trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I want to quit hiding my feelings, even from myself. I need to deal with things as they come. I just don't have the courage yet. But my faith says I have too. I have to believe that i will get through this. And I will.
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right person wrong time
jb30, , Depression, Relationships, 0
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How I feel
Soda123, , Depression, Self Esteem, Suicide, 0
Sometimes I feel like killing myself and ending my life because I feel like nobody cares and also that...
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Oops I did it again
Tryingtochange, , Depression, Child, Therapy, 0
Well I tried. Tried to bring myself out of the hole I crawled into. I talked to my friend...
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Well my good luck is about to run out, been trying and searching and filling out aplications everwhere I...
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Who Am I??
mike478, , Anxiety, Depression, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Questions, 1
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I h8 everybody, but i h8 myself more
NuNu06, , Depression, Child, Depression, Medication, Questions, 0
everybody is getting on my nerves and im beyond irritated with motherfuckers. everybody wants to comment on how i...
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Disconnected
lolita0720, , Depression, 0
Disconnected, it can be lonely or it can feel like relief; sometimes i look around and realize that sometimes...
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Blessings — 6-3-07 and 6-10-07
usaporkchops, , Depression, Anxiety, Depression, Religion, Stress, Weight Loss, 0
June 10, 2007 Dear Friends, Blessed be the Lord God, who alone works wonders, and blessed be His glorious...
Hi HUN! It was great chatting with u today! Sorry I had to leave so abruptly! U know how men can b! OOPS Sorry guys!! Just kidding!! I love your positive attittude thats great it will take u far n life! And your faith is very important 2!! U will get through all this just hang n there remain positive Keep the faith and everything will get better!! Keep me posted on things