Okay, so the day did not get better. It did for a short while because I talked to a friend on the phone for a good bit, but after I took a restless nap I woke up feeling just plain mean.
I rarely get like this ~ I don't know what's gotten into me. I just feel so angry today! I feel bad for my son and family for having to put up with me tonight. It really was a struggle to keep my attitude in check while trying to help Zachary do his homework because he can be incredibly exasperating. A couple of times I had to walk away and get some breathing room. Then he starts on how I should say "thank you" to him for doing his homework…I went off. I told him that "why should you?" when he never thanks me for anything that I do for him, which is a lot. I don't get thanked for playing with him, for helping him do his homework, for making him snacks and meals, for buying his clothes and laundering them, took him to the library today…and then I stopped and realized he's only a few months past 6 and shut up. So I grabbed a new book from the library and parked myself out on the porch and read instead of dealing with people. I figured everyone was much better off that way. Even my Mom asked what the matter was and that I rarely acted like that. I just told her I was exasperated and grumpy and that Zachary's antics weren't helping me much.
But I don't know what's causing this. I'm hardly ever like this and I don't know what brings it on. I don't wantto be touched, don't want to talk anymore like I did earlier and just want to be left alone. So if that's the case, why am I blogging about it? I don't know, maybe to keep myself occupied and prevent having a blow up with my husband over something dumb. He's trying really hard to cheer me up but has figured out that leaving me be is really the best tactic.
Tomorrow I have to get my schedule from work, and then I have to go get Zachary from school early to take him to his therapy appointment. It's going to be a long afternoon for me; most likely no nap unless around 11 a.m. or after we get home. I keep hoping tomorrow will bring a better mood with it. I sure hope so.
Goodnight.
From time to time I have to remove myself from polite society, lol. You're right, it's just better. Oh, and the exasperating kid thing, it's normal. Even mothers can only take so much sometimes. When I was growing up, we didn't get thank yous. Certain things were expected of us and we did them, end of story. So thank yous and I love yous mean so much more to me now. Maybe you could set a clock, and if he does his homework by a certain time (say, 1/2 hour) then he gets a reward. That might cut down on his fidgeting.