Is there anything else at ALL that could possibly go wrong in my life? Honstly talk about kicking someone when they’re down.

I went to by a CD today.. one I have wanted to get for a while. I go to by it and the cashier says that it’s declined. It made no sence concidering I had nearly $200 dollars in my account yesterday. For some unknown reason that money has gone from my account, and cause it’s a sunday I can’t call the bank and ask them where that money has gone. I just hope that I can get that money back, otherwise i’m suck with having $20 to live for 2 weeks! I’m totally and utterly screwed.

I was so embarressed. I wanted to cry. I just can’t believe that so many things can go wrong to me. Its so unfair. I hope someone cuts me a break soon.

So this has caused me to be very low today. I have spent the day in my room, trying to catch up on some school work. I managed to answer most of the questions. There is one that I haven’t been able to find. (If ANYONE can give me a good definition of "Total Quality Managment" in relation to business please let me know).

When I was in the car on the way home from the "attempted" shopping trip, and I was just wanting to come home and kill myself. I was thinking about how I was going to do it. How I was going to die. Today was going to be my last day. I kept quiet in the car and just imagined what was going to happen. Who would attend my funeral? Not many I guess. I’m not worth the time.

I’m just so sick of everything. Sick of being a hopless fool. Sick of having nothing.. Never doing anything right. I’m so tired. I can’t handle anything anymore. I take everything to heart and my heart can’t handle it anymore. If I could stab my heart I would.

So I sit here. In my solitary confinment of my bedroom. Again. Nothing changes. Aways the same. Never going to be any different.

I don’t want to do anything anymore. There is no point.