Hi everyone. I just wanted to say sorry if I haven't responded to you; I haven't been on here in quite some time. I've been going thru some huge changes lately, many of them hard, including coming to terms that me & my Ty are no longer together so we have to stop acting like we are as hard as it may be. I was struggling with the fact that I now have no one to hold or comfort me on my down days, for the first time in 4 years. In saying that, I want to be single & I know this is for the best even tho I still love him dearly. He is my first true love & I can't imagine being with anyone else. He is still my best friend so it was extremely hard for me when he told me he was moving in 2 days. The move wa expected, but not that soon.

So lately I have been extremely sick. At first I thought it was just a stomach flu with the normal nausea, vomitting, etc. Then I got a wicked sore throat & couldn't talk. I was told by my doctor it was just viral & will go away on it's own. I wasn't so sure & thought it was strep, but if it was the flu I was getting over I supposed it was viral. A couple days later it struck 10x worse than before with nausea, shivers, chills, & high grade fever that got up to 104.3 F. Next day I went to the ER where after questioning, examining, a swab, tons of blood, & an X-ray later I was told that I have severe sepsis from untreated strep & would need to be hooked up with some sticky pads & to an IV for fluids & antibiotics. So that's what I've been dealing with lately & I feel like death, which I guess is normal considering there is infection running thru every capillary in my body. Blood pressure was so low they were keeping a real eye on me, but thankfully it went up enough where they let me go home. 🙂 Hope this is over real soon! So incredibly drained.