Not all days are bad days. But for some reason the good days aren't good enough for anyone else. No one I speak to seems to know how difficult it is to overcome a gut-wrenching fear.
"Baby steps," they say, but they don't mean it. They mean, "take a step so far you have another anxiety attack and fall over once again." Yes, I can see the want to push me further to success, but let me have time to celebrate those baby steps… even if it's just a brief moment. Praise me for those baby steps and then maybe suggest going a little further.
Don't cut me down for taking what little step I plan to take even before I've taken it. Don't tell me my effort or idea is not good enough, in whatever words or suggestive language you put it in.
I was going through a website that really resonated with me on many levels. As much as I would love to source the quote for this man, I don't think it's very appropriate. But he said, "It’s too easy to let yourself be overwhelmed. Fight harder. I’m making you feel this way for a reason."
Now… I'm taking this quote way out of the implied context and into my own meaning, but the words encouraged me. I have been taking the easy way out for way too long. My "flight" sense is stronger than my "fight" and I need to learn how to fight again. I need to remind myself that the reason why I may be made to feel the ways that I feel is because I'm better… And being better won't ever come easy. I need to work at it. I need to fight for it. I need to seize it.
And I will.
In baby steps…..
How's that list coming?