The last time I wrote anything or visited this site was 2018. It’s not like my life got any better, the reason I’ve been away. My life just became more cluttered. I have definitely been in a battle of emotions. I am down more than I am up. I feel hopeless everyday pretty much. I don’t know how I’ve made it this far, feeling the way I do. Somedays can be ok, but the feeling never last. Since I last wrote, I’d became my Moms caretaker. She had Dementia, and she passed this year….Covid. I don’t know where I’m going in this life. I’m also close to being homeless….Again. I do work full time, I have no kids of my own. However, I take care pretty much my sisters kids and also my sister. Nothing in my life pretty much has been for myself. I am drained, mentally and physically.