I'm feeling about the same as you in the love boat right now. I feel like I have already lowered my standards and if they dont want me who could? I get what you are going though and for awhile there i found the answer but I lost it again while I had my last relationship. I'm going to try to find it again since I remember what I did but I als remembered it took time. Last time I found relative peace I just started with asking myself the question what would I like to do. As selfish as it was I asked this question without considering too many other people because truth is there wasnt many people to consider at the time. Gradually I surounded myself with things and activities that I enjoyed and with it came a few nice people. One of these was a boyfriend and it was really nice while it lasted but it made me forget that I am im portant too. I want to remind you that you are important and loveable too even if you've lost site of it for the moment! You look really really pretty in your pic and you deserve a great guy to love you and a ton of friends to watch you become happy and stay happy. I know you dont think you can get there but I believe you can! just start with something small maybe taking the time to enjoy a morning coffee (but make it a concious choice you are doing what ever you choose to do because you deserve it even if at first you are just going through the motions) after awhile it helps.