So I created this account, what, last year? Wow.
I think I ran away because I was tired of logging in and seeing everyone else having conversations and stuff while I was just there alone. So…
This week I think is a big turning point for me. I've been posting a lot of blogs at SAF just keeping myself going and stuff. I've learned a lot about myself and I think I'm less afraid of being alone right now.
There was talk about this site not too long ago (SAF is almost like a duplicate really, that was my first thought upon finding that place) and considering the absurd things happening over there… I kinda remembered this place. I think I probably should give it another try. It's so much more active, lol.
I'm having a lot of doubt. The things I really like are the blogs. And I'm torn between keeping up two different profiles and two different blogs. I already spend enough time on the comp., lol =p I guess instead of importing my entries I'll just keep important things on here too so I can keep reminding myself of them. I guess?
And maybe I'll find people who actually would talk to me, lol!
I guess there's nothing wrong with keeping two different profiles, right?
So… I guess I'll do a brief recap on what's happened since… last year, lol. I recently read a book… I was stuck and I was looking for the next step in recovery. I had changed my whole outlook (or so I thought), including exercising and calorie counting. But I went through a really rough couple of weeks… and then I figured out (FINALLY!) that deep down I was still treating myself horribly and unfairly. So I've changed the way I think about myself, including being so much more fair and I've begun to respect myself as I would respect anyone else. I hope that this continues to help me, finally moving from that stuck position…
I think I'll be ok. I know I'll recover now. But now I'm confounded over this place and SAF :p I don't like what I've heard about the incident. Though I've got, what, six added friends there, LOL! Heheheh.
It's a ROCK LOBSTER!