Hi, my name is Kari and I am a 20-year-old lesbian currently living at home during summer break. This is my first blog post here so this feels a bit strange but here goes nothing. I came out to my mom last year; she was accepting but I can tell she was having a hard time with it. I was okay with her adjusting but what I wasn’t okay with was her telling my siblings. My sister is 10 years older than me and my brother 7. They have always been openly homophobic so I think that is why I have always been holding back from being my genuine self. I thought I was bi until February of last year. I thought liking girls wouldn’t matter because I would just marry a man, but that can’t happen now because I finally realized that is not what I am. I also have a stepdad that my mom also told. He is the biggest trump supporter, he is openly racist, sexist, transphobic, and homophobic. I hate this man so much. Every time he talks my blood boils. So being in quarantine is hard for me right now. I am just so emotionally exhausted. My brother and sister don’t live with us but they recently came over to the house to shoot my stepdad’s gun at some targets (I hate guns). I was excluded the entire time they were here. I ate by myself and I sat in the house watching my sister’s two kids. I know they don’t support me and what I am, but I kind of just wish they would just say it if that makes sense. I know they know but they have never once said anything about it to me which escalates how I feel. They barely say three words to me at family gatherings and I absolutely hate it. I feel like I deserve to be acknowledged. I mean I try my best to talk to them but they never keep a conversation. I feel so left out all the time. I just wish I had a family support system. My friends are LGBT but we all have problems talking about serious things. My therapist says I need to find a support system that can be serious and be there whenever I need it. So that is why I am here to help me find a group of people that are like me that can support me and I can help support them too!