When it comes to you
Purple pink skies fill in all your lies
Cause I trusted you to take this heart and fix it
But the only person who can fix me is me
You say I am better off without you
Without you I am better off dead
You leave all my messages on read
Why am I still so broken
You took everything its like your personal prize
All i ask is for my heart back so i can fuck it up more
I act like I am over this but how do I keep acting
How do I keep acting when I am too fucked to sleep
I don’t even think i am sad
I AM NOT ALIVE x2
You said not to write more on you
But this isn’t you
THIS IS NOT YOU
BECAUSE YOU ARE A BLACK CANVAS AND I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR WHITE CRAYON
But it turns out you are a white paper white lie A HARMLESS LIE BUT WHEN I FOUND OUT IT HURT WAY FUCKING MORE THAN ANYTHING
This is not you because you loved me…
I loved you
I say i want stuff to go back to normal but how I feel is not normal
I am on the fence everytime I message you
What will happen? Will I come with the need of closure and leave with the tears of today and tonight? Will I come for a smile and leave in pain?
What will happen when you forget me?
Will I notice?
Will you notice?
Or maybe you already forgot me…
I can’t forget
I can’t remember how it feels to hold your hand because after you stopped seeing me you saw her
She is actually better
I know I say a bunch of bullshit
I do I do
But I dont hate any of this
Watching you happy is better than watching you with me
Because you were never happy with me
Hell is anyone?
Am I even happy with me?
Do i like me?
Or am i another person who will leave me
You hate me they hate me I hate me everyone does
So why do I try…bye