When it comes to you

Purple pink skies fill in all your lies

Cause I trusted you to take this heart and fix it

But the only person who can fix me is me

You say I am better off without you

I disagree

Without you I am better off dead

You leave all my messages on read

Why am I still so broken

You took everything its like your personal prize

All i ask is for my heart back so i can fuck it up more

I act like I am over this but how do I keep acting

How do I keep acting when I am too fucked to sleep

I don’t even think i am sad

I AM NOT ALIVE x2

You said not to write more on you

But this isn’t you

THIS IS NOT YOU

BECAUSE YOU ARE A BLACK CANVAS AND I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR WHITE CRAYON

But it turns out you are a white paper white lie A HARMLESS LIE BUT WHEN I FOUND OUT IT HURT WAY FUCKING MORE THAN ANYTHING

This is not you because you loved me…

I loved you

I say i want stuff to go back to normal but how I feel is not normal

I am on the fence everytime I message you

What will happen? Will I come with the need of closure and leave with the tears of today and tonight? Will I come for a smile and leave in pain?

What will happen when you forget me?

Will I notice?

Will you notice?

Or maybe you already forgot me…

I can’t forget

I can’t remember how it feels to hold your hand because after you stopped seeing me you saw her

Her.

She is actually better

I know I say a bunch of bullshit

I do I do

But I dont hate any of this

Watching you happy is better than watching you with me

Because you were never happy with me

Hell is anyone?

Me.

Am I even happy with me?

Do i like me?

Or am i another person who will leave me

You hate me they hate me I hate me everyone does

So why do I try…bye