Those of you who know me and know me well understand what I have been going through lately. I appreciate the thoughts and well wishes that I have been getting from you, my dear friends, and I wish the same and greetings to you all in return.
With my divorce rearing its ugly head at me as it now comes close to the end, I now arrive at a crossroads in my life. What next? What do I have to look forward to now?
I am contemplating going back to the university to get a Master’s Degree in Psychology…that has yet to be realized. I am in a job that I am not happy with and am thinking of changing, at least until I get that degree and can be in a position of helping others…something that I think I’ve developed quite a talent for lately, which leaves one more important thing in my life that has yet to be completed…the pursuit of love.
I’m sure that all of you know the importance of love. In my life that is no exception. I have always wanted the company and attention of a man as that would be the pinnacle or crown of my success: home and career included (ahem).
As my current marriage failed, I wonder if I still have that magic spark that would make a man’s heart skip a beat when he sees me for the first time & become tongue-tied as he tries to speak to me a simple hello? I am not expecting to jump back in a relationship immediately…I wouldn’t want anyone to think or perceive of me that I am on the rebound, but I want to feel that love, desire, and passion from a man that I was so earnestly searching for in the first place, only to have burned out. I want to love and be loved, but I feel like I am at a standstill, that my options have run out, that I have no where or no one to turn to.
I am a very lonely woman. I have few friends that I could count on a hand and a half. I would like to revive and cultivate a romantic passionate relationship with a man…it’s just that I have yet to find him.