Well guys for the most part I am pretty open about my hiv status but havent told part of my baby girls family because of fear and all the crap that comes with others reactions, anyways I have pretty much wiped my facebook page of anything that says specifically I am hiv positive although I do have pictures posted of last years AIDS WALK and me and Dakota in our Red Ribbon outfits for friends to see and I'd say 90% of them know my stsatus. Well to my surprise when I got onto Facebook I had an event notice of this years AIDS WALK andthe picture I took with Dakota is our team tee shirts is the event picture, I was like OH MY GOD in my head and those hamster wheels in my head started spinning. For the most part I don't care because it is a public picture but Gee Whizzz give me a heads up!!! I hate not being able to tell people whom I have gotten close to my status because I fear they will treat me and Dakota like Lepars as I have already experienced that along with my adult children when they were little kids and it sucks. It took nearly a year for me to tell my babys grandma and she had the usual reaction, she got up and started cleaning her spotless kitchen, but she loved and accepted me anyways it was just a shock to her. But now She and I are as close as can be and I am able to tell her ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. Everyone else on Dakotas Dads side except Dakotas dad and grandma thinks my major health issue is hypertension and Congestive Heart Failure which are a part of my health issues just not the Doozy!!! As much as I harp about honesty and how important and neccessary it is in my life I feel like such a hypocrite
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