I'm tired of taking shit from people, espeically of those that I don't know! you know what? fuck you! no matter what you call me, i've been called worse. i've done worse to myself.

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it might be my own damn fault for what I go through now but NO ONE has the right to judge me. worry about you own damn self if what I say bothers you so much.

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But don't you dare, don't you fucking dare invalidate my feelings, my struggles, or the pain that is crushing me every day.

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every fucking day I have to fight against killing myself, and this last time I did it almost worked! if they would have found me just 10 or 20 minutes later I wouldn't be here! and i'd finally be happy.

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are you happy now? you wanted me to cry well here I am! crying barely able to see what the fuck i'm typing.

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this was supposed to be a safe place, with every time I posted something my anxiety hit the roof, afraid of saying something wrong.

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i've been broken for so long and this latest assualt has just confirmed i'm nothing more then dirt…or as a certian someone put it "a pig in the mud"

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I hope your happy because I won't be posting anymore after this. I've lost all faith in people, God, living…it's gone.

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I don't know what I got so much hate from you, but you won. i'm broken down and the hate me for myself is deeper then ever.

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this is no guilt trip, just raw broken feelings. and i've lost. the will to fight, to reach out to fight, the will to breathe…there's no point.

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I'm just God's worst mistake.and I accept that…

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So, Goodbye and thank you to those who put up with me…but you won't have to do that anymore. i'm sorry.