I might just go psycho, my boyfriend is back in my life sadly, known that he cheated on me, but i don’t know what to do he betted me not to leave him. Put all night thinking of my eyes going backward in head just think about. I’m only seventeen, till March 20, and have my whole life ahead of me. My boyfriend try to show me, that’s not how it seems, him hating me leaving him. But it’s like everyday I just get lowered with the myself. He lets me know every night will have a brighter day, but tell me how it’s going to be a nice or brightened day… I help hopeless, maybe I should overdose and take my life away, far away from here. Every time he try to hold my hand, I just have to resist so he don’t see the scars that was bury deep within my wrists. I’ll still feel numb, even if he try’s to bet and plead and ask me,”Why?” But maybe I should say this is the way that I can control the pain that I feel inside of my body. How long it’s been going since that I’ve felt this way? Because I’m still stuck here, just feeling so damn helpless. It’s been a while, I just guess I needed better luck. Nobody seem to get me, I feel like I’m on my own. My heart is hurting, I think the road has end from day one of my life, may I just feel the blades that I can feel maybe my only friends that I have. But it all end as soon i when into class, dropped my books and every student in the room seemed to just point and laugh. I can’t take no more. I just text Erik and tell him I love him to death, but I’m pretty sheer he won’t tell what I meant that very literally.

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  1. wisecrackingwaffles 9 months ago

    Hey there, Friend.

    It sounds like you are going through a really rough spot right now. As someone who has been up on a very similar edge, I want you to know that you are going to be okay.

    Do not give up the incredible life that you have ahead of you.
    You have a loving heart, dedication, and you are not afraid to express your feelings. Those are wonderful qualities.

    Please, do not hurt yourself. Don’t physically harm yourself. Don’t try to end your life. And don’t emotionally hurt yourself.
    As someone who used to feel a lot of what you do right now, I can tell you that the pain you cause yourself will not help.

    Sometimes, life hands us a rotten situation. But you can’t give up. We need you.

    If you need to talk about anything, I am here.
    Also, if you need to talk to a professional, do not hesitate to call this number. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
    1-800-273-8255

    Please, hang in there. It gets better, I promise.
    -Waffles

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      teig 9 months ago

      Thx, but I won’t very myself, I just think of what happening at my point of you.

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      teig 9 months ago

      I was just in my head

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      • wisecrackingwaffles 9 months ago

        That is alright. It is absolutely okay to be angry or frightened or frustrated. This is a good space to get some of that out. Don’t give up. It gets better!

        -Waffles

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