Growing up in my household was a hard time. My father was a cop who drank. We lived in a small town so everyone knew who he was. Of course, he never acted like he did in front of anyone else the way he did for us. I used to silently pray that visitors wouldn’t leave so he wouldn’t start yelling again. He beat both of my brothers a lot, especially my youngest. There was a 10 year gap between my youngest brother and I, 13 for my sister. I grew up afraid of my father and resentful and hateful of my mother for not getting us the hell out of there. I’m surprised I have a normal relationship w/my husband, except for my depression that gets worse w/time. At this time, I’m not speaking to my parents for something stupid-their fault, but everyone else is to blame. None of my siblings talk to them.:sad: I’ve tried not to let this bother me, but it really has. My depression has gotten way worse in the past 5-6 months. This could be because of money issues also.:angry: I’m just so fed up w/everything-my kids really get to me, especially my 3 1/2 year old.:helpsmilie: I had to have my husband take them up with him to visit his family so I could get my head together. Great mom, huh?:no: I’m in therapy, but I don’t see any results. I think I need to switch and go to a psychologist since the sounselor I go to isn’t helping w/anything. My meds have stopped working and I really need some help. I’d really like to find some meds that reduce your food cravings (better yet, just turn off the hunger altogether.) Has anyone found any that do that? I’ve got the binging down, the purging is the hard part. Haven’t quite mastered that one!:wink: I’d like to hear what some others have to say about all of this. Any similar experiences?