I've actually been feeling quite better the last week or so. My OCD has been next to none, and when I start freaking out about thinking I may have a disease, I just tell myself " well..who cares, so what if you do; if you do, then you'll take care of it" and just move on….it's really crazy how my OCD comes in seasons.

 I've really noticed that my OCD is worse when I have too much time on my hands. When I stay busy, I don't have time to worry about stupid little things; therefore, My OCD isn't present. When I'm home alone all day, and not working, that's when my mind starts turning and I almost try to find something to worry about.

Overall for the past week, i've been doing really well. lets hope it stays that way. It's been so good to not have that worry feelin in the pit of my stomache, and actually feel at peace with things.

I've really come to realize, that the things I worry about are so small. I mean, i worry about having cancer, or STD's,  ( which totally freak me out! and i'm scared to death of them) just stupid little things that consume my thoughts. I realize that even if I did somehow get some crazy disease, it wouldn't make me any less of a person, and it wouldn't change who I am. People would still love me for me. It's really about making a difference in this world, and being the best person you can be. Worry doesn't change anything. I remember I used to worry all the time about my mom dieing, it was my biggest fear; and I thought if she died I wouldn't be able to go on living. Well, my mom died 2 years ago, and I'm still here today. I'm dealing with it, and going on with my life. There really isn't anything in this life that is too big to handle, especially with God on you're side…you can get through anything. Nothing is too big for him.