ok, so i talked to the hubby, and we are on the same page.

or so i thought. i am starting to think now that hes blowing smoke up my ass. my dad called last night to say that he knows someone who is looking for a mechanic and its union which means great pay and benefits. called hubby told him, he kinda of giggled then i ask him if he called this other place where he put in his resume, no.

ok, now i am starting to think, which like i said before for me is dangerous.my thoughts per our talk. he doesnt want to move yet as he wants to put money aside for that in thinking that our son is leaving the nest and we can save for a year.

we have a daughter that is going be graduating 2013 so saving cash , dont make me laugh. all it means as the bills might be able to get paid on time and in full instead of breaking them between the month.for the record, we have not enough of an income to 'save' before even when i was working . so i figure if we could not 'save' when we were both working then what the frick is going to change?and how much does he want to save up? (i need to ask that)

why the hell am i staying for? see my thought process goes all over the board. reason i am scared to goits income.nothing else. always down to the almighty dollar. i am not goingto be able to afford to live,which means parentals place it is. i am sure i can for a bit, but a year? hellno! i dont know if my daughter would come, its her decision as its her grad year. my son already there.so not any worries on thatpart.

going to talk to myaunt and run it by her asshe has more of an objective view. leaving before the man comes home tonight. i have an appointment with therapist tomorrowand i cant wait that long. i need to talk it over, NOW!

i mean if he doesnt want to leave now, and i am sure it will take him a year if not more to actually land a job, i really dont think he does.he though says other. LIAR! so for me we waisted money by going tosee about a job, when he could ofcalled him and found out that its commision work andnotenough hours. a phone call!!!!! not driving over 1000 miles to find that out! gas money ahotel there and back.could of caught up on bills!!! FRICKEN HELL!!!!! but thats ok i am the one they call for payment not him, i am the one to make the plans for payment date so nothing is cut off, not him!

i really need to punch something or smash something.

ok, i am done butnot calm, whichusually i am cause i vented! whatever

ttyl