Well, it seems like thing have gone from about 0 to 60 in just a couple weeks for me!
I hate blogs, I never know how to start these things!
Well, I'm seeing a therapist for the past 3 weeks now and also joined a volunterring organization, I got a job and I'm also driving. I remember when I first started driving my chest and neck would start breaking out in like…this reddish rash looking thing? and I would start getting a panic attack. Now I can drive anywhere with it being no problem. and at my job–i'm doing Great! I used to get panic attacks just from using the register, now I'm still very nervous, but I'm still in control. I am getting so far with my anxiety! My confidence is growing everyday!
And even more than that, since I was abused as a child I have this problem where I disasscociate with my feelings, and I'm actually finally FEELING my feelings. I don't really know how to control it, my emotions just shut off randomly without my consent, but now it's happening less and less. I'm actually feeling emotions in my relationship and yeah, it's pretty scary considering I've been shut off my whole life, but at the same time it's [email protected]#$IN' AMMAAZZIINGGG. I was beginning to wonder if I would ever get any better, but now I finally am. and I love it! I still have so far to go, but I've accomplished so much..it's just going to keep getting better and better from now on.
I don't feel so trapped by my problems as I did before. So never give up people, things do get better! It takes alot of hardwork and yeah, you'll feel wide open and raw at times..and it will be so, so painful..but it will get better.