This is my first blog post, so I guess I'll start out with where I've been and where I am in regards to anxiety. Although I'm new to the 'Tribe' I'm certainly not new to anxiety. I had my first symptoms of anxiety when I was about 8 or 9 years old, although I did'nt know it then. I remember feeling as if I needed to take deep breaths, yet found it hard to really get a deep breath… Even now this old symptom of my anxiety comes back from time to time. I'm 37 years old now, so anxiety has been a part of my life to one extent or another for nearly 30 years. And, believe it or not this is my very first attempt at talking about it with a group or anything like that. So, hopefully this will be a new chapter…something that will help.
I was 15 when I had my first full blown panic attack, and was rushed to the ER. Since then I have struggled with this problem, and it has altered my life for the worse without a doubt. It has hurt me professionally and in personal relationships etc. I have however had long periods free from anxiety, even up to a year or two… but it always seems to come back. I have never taken any medication for the anxiety, as I have felt that it all originates with thought patterns, and I should be able to control my own mind… foolish I guess. I have been taking a beta blocker however, and it does help tremendously with the racing heart thing that goes along with anxiety… I have found that being active and getting plenty of exercise is what helps me the most.
As for where I am right now, I'd have to say in one of my worse slumps ever. All last year I was very active and had zero anxiety issues… then, I lost my job and broke my wrist, so I found myself sitting in the house all the time. Now, all my problems are back… I don't want to go anywhere from fear of something bad happening etc. I have a fear of being stuck in traffic or on bridges etc…, you know, places I can't get away from in case I have an anxiety attack. My fiance is starting to think that I just don't want to go anywhere with her ( back to it effecting relationships again ! ).
Anyway, I could go on and on… but in short, I'm crazy ! lol No but I'm hoping to meet some friends here who share the same issues that I can beat this anxiety together with… So if you need a friend as well, friend me up !
I can empathize with so much of this. This too shall pass. When we have bad times, they blind us to all of the good times we have had in the past and the potential for good times ahead.
Keep an eye on the (guessing here) possible accompanying depression, too.
Lots of kindred souls, here. Hope this thing passes soon for you.
Welcome! Please know that you are not alone. I felt the way you did before I joined this wonderful group. Example, yesterday, I asked for positive thoughts and prayers as I am going for a medical test today and I did get them. Thank goodness for the warmth and support here. I really don\'t have anyone else who can understand my anxiety and fears. I have had my share of lows in my life and thought that\'s the way life was…I have numerous physical symptoms when anxiety strikes. Today is one of those days. I know how you feel and it will get better once again. Take care.