We must begin somewhere so this is the first step. My anxiety is so out of control that I only leave the house to take the garbage can to the street once a week and to my therapist appointments. I have experienced a few traumatic events in my life that have molded me into this person I do not recognize or like very much. I miss out on playing at the park with my daughter. I miss out on going to dinner with my best friend of 30+ years. I miss out on visiting family with failing health. I hate what my anxiety has robbed of me.
I have made the conscious decision to stop watching the news. Since the 2016 Presidential election I have been glued to every tidbit of information surrounding the new “President”. It infuriates me! It adds to my feelings of not being safe and the unpredictability of others. I want to be involved in movements that defend human rights and protect animals from cruelty, but the passion I have to help gets muddied up with all the political agendas. In the end I give up hoping to avoid all the gas-lighting and lies from the current White House administration.
I am choosing to spend those hours of constant “Breaking News” to live in the now. So my right now is writing this and exploring The Tribe Wellness Community website. It’s hard to keep focused on the right now. It’s hard to keep those other thoughts from creeping in telling me to hide under the covers and maybe tomorrow will be better. Well, tomorrow isn’t getting better and I still hide under the covers. I am hoping the active change of removing the news (and continuing therapy) from my daily life will eventually help keep me out of bed and engaged in life.
First step taken.