I suppose that many/most of our complexes can be traced to our relationships with our mothers/fathers as very young children — Freud would have us believe this anyway. It makes a lot of sense to me in many cases, but now I have a psychiatrist telling me that my PTSD is rooted in issues relating to my mother. True, my mother was certainly not the best in the world — probably closer to the very bottom of the barrell when it comes to parenting skills BUT why was that never an issue in my life until I was 29 years old and had just been blown 15 feet into the air by an IED? I was not Mr. Psychologically perfect as a younger man, but I lived life. I had friends, had a wife, had a "normal" life. I know that nobody has a "normal" life, but I did not have a panic disorder, didn\'t even know what panic disorder was. So my mother is to blame for what\'s happened to me? Is that what I am to understand from the psychiatrist? It wasn\'t the physical and psychic trauma of combat? It was my mother?

I am having a tougher and tougher time getting through the days as of late. I\'ve been lousy about corresponding with my friends on here and I\'m sorry. I was displaced for 10 days by a fire at my apt. complex. I\'m back at my apt. for now but we keep losing water/power so I\'m never sure when I\'ll have to pack up and stay elsewhere for the night. It is difficult for someone like me who has become semi-reclusive — and NO being forced out my hole and having to deal with people has NOT helped. it has made me into a nervous wreck.