Hey guys. I haven't blogged as much these last couple of weeks, and to be completely honest it's because I have been doing really well, but i know it's important to share your achievements as well as your struggles 🙂 I am currently sat 17 miles from home (new record!) by the lake with a cappuccino and just the sound of the water and I am totally at peace. I feel safe and content and I know I am in no danger. My mum is nearby in th centre and that is my comfort blanket keeping me calm at this moment.. If she wasn't here I probably wouldn't be so calm, but the point is, I'm okay. Probably better than okay. I hope everyone who is at their lowest point realises that there is a light at the end of all this, whether you can't even see if yet or it's just a tiny dot, it's there and it's awesome so keep fighting. My journey has been difficult, and many times I nearly gave up, but I look at where I am now and I feel pride. I do have a long long way to go but I have come even further. Alot of people said to me 'you will come out of this a stronger person' and I couldn't understand that when I felt so mentally and physically weak and controlled by something else. But yknow what? They were right. My biggest change is my self confidence, which is strange because it was never a big deal, I was unhappy with myself and that was that, got over it. Now I feel more confident in myself, i can talk to people and not worry if they think I'm a bit stupid, unfunny or weird, because I am totally comfortable within myself. I am myself and that is good enough for me! Anyway I'm warbling on.. I will reply to all the things I need to reply to later, I'm on my phone at the moment and the signal is low so it will take ages! Love and peace to you all xo