WOW!!!!!!! THE PAIN FINALLY GOT GREAT ENOUGH!!!!! In an earlier blog i admitted i have an addiction to the internet and a social website, Well I finally admitted to god and another human the nature of the disease that is kicking my ass.

Now that I admitted to that  I have been slowly working my way away from the social websites.  However now that I honestly look at the way I am doing it, it prolly  aint in a vary spiritual way. ( an excuse is an excuse) but i am just not ready to totally  surrender it. The time is coming close though  I can feel it coming to a head, and it feels good.

I am now 90 days clean as of today. I am finally totally surendered to the program of N A . I have made The decision to stay in Michigan and find what I once had in Tampa. When I finally got honest with another person about my second addiction it has made things appear more clearly than ever. 

SERVICE WORK KEEPS YOU CLEAN!!!!!!! When I was in Tampa I was a service junky, Now today i have three service postions in three different  groups and I am now eligable to answer the help line in our area. and will find out when i can start that this week . I got a sponser  that calls me on my shit and I am forming a few frindships that I am allowing them to call me out and me not wanting to do great bodily harm to them. I am calling more ppl and I am trying to get connected with so i can be apart of instead of apart from the fellowship.  

Tonight was at My Primary home group I made a connection with a few member of the group at the meeting after the meetings. That is the one thing I really miss about the Fun Coast Area of N A  and that is the meetings before and after the meeting itself, That is what made my recovery down there so rich and valuable to me,