I find myself doubting myself about it being the right thing leaving the abusive situation ship when I get tired.  Maybe if I would of accepted his proposal, a marriage license would of magically made him into a different man? Sigh, don’t worry I get sentiment when tired     He didn’t want me to end it and offered to marry me on the spot.   It makes me sad thinking I could of made him sad    Yet; he was so mean, controlling and cruel etc.

Logically, he opted to treat me with cruelty , without empathy, he was controlling, cold, arrogant, selfish, etc.   It was his choice to not treat me right.

If I would of married him; “that” is how it would of been and or it could of gotten worse.

Thanks I feel better just typing this out.   I think I really loved him.   I feel better now.