So my husband decided to be a drug addict throughout my 3 years of marriage! Toatally pulled the wool over my eyes. Just like hubby 1 jackasses. I’m beginning to hate men all together for real it’s like torture dude. If there not not raping or melesting me. Mocking or beating the crap out of me they are turning my life completely upside down. I gave this marriage my all. I did everything I was asked by his family oh keep him out of jail and trouble etc. Watch over him and make him happy. I spent 3 years babysitting a 46 year old and I’m 32. How the F is that even fare? What about me and the promise to love me and have my back? What about our home and my cat? My job and all my friends? What the heck is wrong with men? Why am I, always told I’m bad because I picked him? I have a broken picker because of my mom or my fucked up family? When am I worthy of Love? Am I even worthy of Love? I’m staying with my sister and she’s being great but I’m terrified she’s going to turn on me and kick me out. I don’t know she’s turned her back before. I just have to trust God in all this I guess.
I’m just scared and lost. I haven’t heard from my husband since i left home to move here which is good i need to divorce him as much as i love him and don’t really want to. but hey sometimes love isn’t enough and i just need to be me and love dragon girl for once. plus i love having family in my life its pretty awesome. especially being by the ocean and back home again. My mom won’t speak to me it’s driving me crazy. wish she would since I’m close by but whatever what can one do when there adopted by family that wants to silence gossip to protect the family name and shuts you out at 18. all i know is I’ve lost my home, my job, my cat, and almost all my friends because of the ashore i married and its messed up. Why, he did drugs got kicked out of rehab. Robbed his boss our landlord and got me evicted. Question of my day how do i pic up the pieces of my crushed heart and where do i go from here?????