Weird day today. My boss called me at 9 am and asked me to come to work for a chat. I had to go out there to deal with paper work anyway so I went to see him. The whole way there I was thinking that the conversation was gonna be about this asphault plant that I escaped from. I saw that job as liquid stress. I hated it there and told myself that I would never run that plant again. So I showed up at his office we spoke. As I assumed, he wants to know what my intentions are for the up coming season. I look up to my boss, he's like a father to me. I told him how I feel about things but I was willing to do what ever he needed me to do. He Told me that our company is constructing a new asphault plant and he would like me to run it. Nobody looking over my shoulder, no one to tell me how to do my job. It changed something in me. The man I have always looked up to saw me as the guy for this job. My own plant! I don't know if you people understand this but in my line of work this is a huige deal. Its not everyday someone offers you 30 million dollars worth of factory and says "your the captain". They idea is really exciting but I look at my anxious mind and wonder how I will actually perform. It wasn't there, I couldn't even fake an anxious thought. Which brings me to todays blog.

Purpose! If you do not have one, I suggest you find one. There have been multiple studies done on stress levels in correlation with unemployment and job hatred. I know it is hard in this day and age to do what you want to do. But we all need to find some possitivity in our jobs. Sometimes all it takes is a change in attitude, a vacation or a small promotion. Think of what you want from your job and aim for it. If its possible, go out and find a new job. This sence of purpose means alot to stress, anxiety and depression. Not only in our jobs but in our lives. There is an idea that anxiety is so prevelant in our society because of the loss of God. People have no religion, no purpose, no higher power to perform for. I am not religious myself but I can easily understand this. I see retired men in my profession drop like flies because they do nothing after retiremen. They lose their purpose, then their drive and ambition. It leaves them open to depression which causes a quick downward slope in over all health. This is so real that my company has a policy about including retired workers in all of out company functions. You need to have purpose! This is why I say, get a hobbie, develope goals. The sense of acheivement will keep your mind in a possitive place. Their not hard to develope. Try simple things. Make plans to be a better friend or mate. Quit smoking. Set goals and work toward them. Have a purpose and you will feel better. See the things you hate doing as a part of this purpose and they wont seem so bad. Alot of times we can change how we feel and think about things just by looking at it from another angle. I hate cleaning the toilet, but I love walking into a clean bathroom. I wish someone else would do it but that person does the dishes and I hate dishes! lol. You see, we all have to do our share for the end result. This is why I do what I do and not think to negatively about it. Try this out. Find your purpose, make real acheivable goals and pat yourself on the back when ever you can :")