Well It’s now 3.17pm and I have left my bed twice, once to get a drink and once to go to the toilet. I just can’t even bring myself to get out of bed today. I’m so lazy, it’s disgusting. I’m hungry, yet I don’t have the energy to go and get something to eat. I have just been sitting here, watching the cricket and talking to people on Dtribe.

There doesn’t seem to be many people around today, or yesterday even. I wonder where everyone is. I don’t know if it’s due to the holidays, but everyone seems to be down, including myself. What is it about the holidays that is just depressing? I do not understand.

My sister goes has her last day of school tomorrow, then she’s onto summer holidays. I don’t know if I’m looking forward to it or not. In one way I love having her around, yet, I also love having the house to myself, when both her and my mum are out. I can do what I want to do. There is also the factor of me not being able to drink. I like to drink by myself, so if she’s around I’m not going to be able to drink.

On the subject of drinking, it’s now been 5 days since I have had a drink. I don’t know how I’m feeling about it yet. I get paid on Friday, so I guess that will be the real test. If I got to the liquor store, I know I have failed. If it was only as easy as just not going… 

What should I do? Hmmmm..