I get what you mean about the family problems and my best advice is to just ignore them because your family is saying that stuff because they don’t want you to do better then them. Which is toxic family is supposed to lift you up instead of tear you down. Hey don’t stress the whole ex thing you clearly needed time to yourself even if you did what you did just because other people told you to. Use that as a lesson for you next relationship to not let other people intervene. I’d say to maybe keep your love life private just because it is something that seems to matter to you. Anyways i hope you find that special person who you can laugh with but also share your thoughts with without feeling guilty. Because ultimately family is just blood they aren’t always they people we consider family sometimes it’s our friends and significant others that we consider our home.