This goes along with the other blog on here~ i could make a huge blog but the break down of it is~ i with my ove zealousnes~ because of the fact with all my tendercies to hyperness…a.k.a the “Tigger factor” as my close friends & and family have come to call it…between all the various things i have or things i AM ? IDK~” bi plar/add/ocd/hype/ etc/etc/etc i have difficulty controling or hiding how i feel in any given situation…work/job/relationship/school/ anything…new things i get VERY excited about…as a child i ALL to oftern broek new toys within hours of getting them…our puppy had to be VERY carfully supervised around me for his own safty…get the picture///i mean VERY well..i jsut am well a bit much for people that do not know me or understand me…if they dont know WHY i am this way,etc…i can push people away…sometime i get the chance to explain…other times …not 🙁 in the case now..it is about a new * hopeful relationship with a guy that is honest about that he does like me & very much likes spending time with me,etc..we were doing great..had talked about all sorts of stuff to do, etc. but i got a little too bouncy & he is VERY calm, laid back & even a bit shy…so i overwhelm him to say the least.(not in a i need all ur time way..im not a 24/7 girl..more like hey lets hang out a couple times a week girl).he wanted to slow it a bit..we talked a couple days ltr…he said he was really taken by surprise by the whole thing with us in the first place…not expecting it…and had been hurt alot & very badly…especially recently by his ex…not very nice from what i gather…so…for now…go slow…he said…he’s not going anywhere…wants to see me..do all the stuff we talked about…jsut slowly…but IDK..im just afraid i already have messed up…i also am not sure how to act…how to NOT mess up from here on out,,,being SOO hyper & all…we dont talk near as much as we had..im guessng that is the slowing down part? IDK im sooo bad at the whole dating thing…my bi plar, anxiety is BAD now & this stuff DOES make it worse i admit…i SO DO NT want todo something dumd as i am prone to…ugh …i would REALLY like to see if this might be something…im NOT usually this bad…jsut a timing thing…but timing is what it is right? so…eh ~argh~ great sound effects huh? What to do…We have tentative plans for me to make dinner for him Thursday evening…I am hoping that will pan out…If it does that would mae me feel a lot better…Just do the dinner thing (I LOVE making dinner) hang out relax, spend some time together, tlak whatever) ~ see how it goes from there…SO..ok that was beleive it or not the short version…LOL SOrry for my rambling but my mind races & its very cluttered so if it doesnt makes sense thats why…

k if u read this…thx for listening & taking the time
~Oh & sorry for typos & misspelling…my bad 🙁
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Jackie~