Hi everyone…I don't know much about this site but I'm trying…I'm just tired of my emotional problems that I have and seens that no one in this world can understand me not even my loving ones.Sometimes I don't want to exist I just believe that I don't belong to this world…I hate what I feel…I don't want to get in the point that I hate my life and all the people wich is around me.I have 4 yrs old son I love him so much and I don't want to be a bad mom for him….but is so hard I feel so lonely and no support from my loved ones….they can't understand me and that's hurts me very much…I'm so sensitive and that is my major weekeness….people take advandge of that….M y anxiety is my biggest nightmare and I'm affraid I won't ever wake up from it…I'm afraid of living in the world that I don't belong to….my panic attacks is more frequent and it's so embarasing…I just can't control….I have a fear to lose my son,my boyfriend,my friends,my mind…just like I lost my father….I just wish I was diferent…I don 't want people to hurt me …I don't want people think that I'm crazy because I'm not!!! I hate what I feel and I don't have money to go to a therapy or specialist..I got deal it on my own and that's so hard to me …I'm so afraid …I want to live..but I'm losing my hope everyday slowly….oh my God I don't know what's my future anymore…I don't know what's makes me happy anymore…I don't see anything in front of me….I'm losing my strenght…my dreams..my smile…my body is tired…my mind is heavy…I'm alone…people around me can';t understand ..they are excluing me from they world…I'm on my own…   🙁 🙁 I'm tired of crying…I 'm tired of my panic atacks….I'm just tired…tired of anxiety…I'm traped and alone!!