i thought i was going to go back to school for the past month or so and was going through the application financial aid process but its all crumbling around me. my therapist doesn't think i can do it since i have no support system and no help from my parents and my major is expensive. and i agree… i just don't know what to do. i don't have any other option. i already live like a homeless person, i've been living with my parents for almost 4 years, i have no friends left. my logic was that i might as well get into massive debt and go to school. since i already live like i'm in massive debt. but financial aid is so complicated and anyone i could ask about it, they are the people who would make money off me. no one actually thinks i can do it. no one is there supporting me or telling me its a good idea, just me and i don't even know. i don't know the right way to do it!

Even If i went I would have to get a job, I've never been self supporting. I want to be but I've never had the chance.I hate where I live.I don't want to live here another second but i'm probably going to be living here another 8 years! I wish i had a gun at this point, I don't really want to, but this is all too much! And I don't see an answer! my therapist told me she can't help me. she told me, "yeah, things are too much for you and you cant do them, and your stuck. you never do anything!" after months of me slowly trying to figure out loans and stuff. I don't even know, i just left the office and canceled her appointments. There's no one who can help me. I don't know what to do.