I'm okay today. I was able to get out of bed — always a miracle for me. I took a shower — seemed to help me feel more awake.

So this "being awake" — I'm not sure which is the literal translation — the physical awake or the emotional/mindful awake — maybe they're one in the same — oh well — just pondering.

I made coffee — I love coffee! For me, coffee has so many memories tied to it — sitting on the front porch of our old home drinking coffee with mama — sometimes we would talk, other times we would sit and stare out at the world from our little porch. That was one of the beautiful things with me and my mom — we didn't have to talk at all —- we were content to just be together quietly. Mama died in 2000 — I miss her so much!

I go back to work tonight. Been off for my three day weekend 🙂 I'm feeling fairly good about going to work — not as anxious since I've been on prozac. I love my job, but I would get all nervous about "failing" or "making a mistake" — work myself up into dread, and wanted to crawl back into bed. I'm thankful that feeling is easing out, slowly — the anxiety is still there hovering close by.

My little doggie, Rocky, seems to be back to himself today — last night he was freaking out — acting like he was seeing something that was not there — shivering uncontrollaby. I think I found out why — there was a fly in the kitchen last night — I found were the fly had died and was in the kitchen floor — so, I think that problem is solved 🙂

Time for me to get ready for work.

"If you're awake and you know it, clap your hands. If you're awake and you know it clap your hands. If your awake and you know it then your face will surely show it. If your awake and you know it clap your hands"…….