Okay, so I’m a newbie. I am married with a one year old and a six year old step daughter. I am a couch potato. LOL. I just need some people to talk to, and vent to, because I have no one else. I have tried numerous times talking to God, but honestly it is more depressing when you talk to someone who never seems to talk back. If you’re like me, you probably don’t like reading super long forums about someone else’s problems, so for those of you who will make it through, I will try to make this as short as possible. I am severely depressed. I have anxiety and PTSD from an ex-boyfriend. My depression is what’s getting the best of me at this moment. I have been having a lot of anger and resentment towards my step daughter (for what reason I have no idea). Yesterday, it came to blows with her father as I knew it would for me treating her like I do. I was fighting off the urge to just kill myself and solve everyone’s problems. But I could never do that. Even though I could never do that, for some reason it always almost physically hurts to try to resist that urge. Anyways. I just feel like such a failure. I keep asking why I have to be this way. Why does my brain think the things it does. Why can’t anything fix me. I’ve tried numerous medications and they all seem to not help if not make me worse. It seems like it just makes me hold in everything until I just explode and make everyone mad. I have no friends. Like literally none. I just want to be happy. Why does that seem so impossible? Someone….. anyone….. please. Please just talk to me. Tell me everything will be okay. Because as of right now… Nothing seems okay. I feel like this one big problem and there’s no way to solve me. I’m sinking down as fast as an anchor right now. Someone please bring me back up to the surface.

2 Comments
  1. mlelevier31415 7 months ago

    You are not alone in whatever you are experiencing. There are so many people in this world that there just has to be at least a couple of people who have been through similar things. I know not what you have been through or of the demons that you have to face, and I am sorry for what you have been through and have to work through. I cannot promise that anything will get better, and I am also sorry for that. If you are not already in therapy, I would suggest that. It hurts really bad to work through your problems, but it is so worth it when things start to get better. There will always be bad days, but I promise you that there will be good days, too.

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  2. peata 7 months ago

    Excersize is extremely important! Take a walk every day ,in nature if possible. Sleep meditation apps will help too if used regularily. And listen to positive but also relaxing music for instance pat metheny or four play. Good luck.

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