Hi everyone I’m new here. I just got diagnoised with ocd. Everything is happening so fast! I have hid my thoughts and behaviors till 3 days ago to my husband of 12 yrs. I’m so tired of thinking I’m crazy, I’m so tired of checking locks and plugs, and I’m so tired of having the thoughts that something terrible is going to happen to my family , I’m tired of talking to people and not looking them in the eyes, I’m so tired of me thinking everyone thinks I’m lying or that I’m bothering them. I’m just tired. The reason why I finaly said anything is because I’m so afraid my 13 yr old has it to. I started to notice things he was doing that was so close to the things I do. So I had to tell my husband so I could go to a doctor and find out what was wrong with me so I might be able to help my son. Everything has been crazy these last few days. Just in a few days I found out I have ocd, I have to go to 2 different head doctors. One of them told me to just talk to my son about my issues and see how he reacts. Well I did, first he was quiet and then he says "mom I do all that stuff too. " It is almost like we have the same issues. I feel so bad that I have passed this on to my baby. Before when you would here about ocd you would here that they could control it. I thought it was a lack in faith in me. But I just can’t stop. My husband has been awesome. When I told him he said that this explains alot of things. He thought I was unhappy or freakin out because of him. The good thing that has come of me saying anything is that he knows now that it is not him it is me. I’m just scared. People till me it will get better. But I’m so afraid it won’t. I’m so tired of being crazy!!!! I’m so tired of picturing horrible accidents that my family might be in. It just seems like it is getting worse and I can’t stop. I want to stop so bad. Now my son is having to go threw it all too!!! If anybody has any advice or encouragement please write back. I found this site and decided to just lay it all out. I need your help!